Before I even begin here…
If you are in crisis, please call your local suicide or crisis hotline or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. Help is available, so please reach out.
What I am writing about here is for informational purposes and guidance towards a better understanding of the emotion of suicidal urges, but it is not to be substituted for prevention of someone in a crisis.
I wanted to write about this topic because I have felt this emotion (as I think a lot of us have) and am thankful I had help available from loved ones, because I sure as hell had no understanding of the true meaning of the emotion that is the suicidal urge. My experience and understanding of this emotion was that it meant you were to find a way to intentionally end your physical life, period. I had nothing else to draw from but that.
Something does need to be put to an end, but it is not your physical life. If you think about it, that would be evolutionarily unproductive. These emotions arise when we have ignored our anger, hatred, shame and depression, and our soul has had enough. They arise when you can no longer tolerate who you have become and the life you’re living. All of your emotions and energies exist to keep you alive, functional, connected and whole, not to destroy us or end our physical life. The suicidal urge is sacred and comes when you require intense energy to make a change NOW in a behavior or an idea.
This energy is STRONG and INTENSE and not to be taken lightly. Learning to stay grounded and work with a suicidal urge can help you to stand up for yourself, your hopes and dreams, and clear the way for them to happen.
Once I started having a different perspective about these bleak and agonizing feelings, I began to find ways to honor them and bring forth certainty, resolve and transformation. Things began to shift. It is so important to remember that we need to continually kick limiting beliefs to the curb and open our hearts and minds to expanding and abundant beliefs. We are here to live and thrive in love and community. If you are feeling “stuck” and at a loss, change your point of view and look for an option. If you can’t do it yourself, ask for help.
If you have physically lost someone to suicide, Dianna Bonny offers healing for those left behind. Please visit her website at http://livingonthefaultlines.com/ for resources that can help.
Photo: Kim Cox
